Its quite
I like it quite, life is meant to be like a silent motion picture you get the general idea but it’s not what is happing, because life is a bitch and it will bite you in arse when you look back at what happened. I odium (Hate) looking back at memories, it’s nightmarish like when you try to run but you can never seem to move and you drag yourself on floor trying to reach a door and something is chasing after you. I do admit life has been trouble-free for me and sure the world is suffering from aid, global warming and “Terrorism” but there is personal suffering which is beyond what some can handle – I cry when I look back at an old friend who died or my brother who is dead, these are memories which I can run from, I don’t fear death as a Muslim I know death is something inevitable for it is something we must all face.
I want to be a person who goes to work, and then goes home to his wife where I will help make dinner and watch TV, have fun and enjoy every single moment with her because life isn’t worth living alone. I know I’m only 17 and what do I know of life and why I think of death – I don’t wish to think of death but I’m forced to remember things which I don’t want it’s an inner sickness of remembrance of those who I care deeply for…
Do you ever wish that if you had one wish it would be more wishes? Well life is that hard for people and I that I want to change it for better, but to change life won’t that destroy life as we know? Won’t that destroy its purpose and basic functionality? The easy things are always the hardest to get. No wonder everyone want world peace, solution to the Palestine-Occupation or an end to global suffering be it wars, aids, murder or rape. Obviously we can’t because of politic, of Arab dictatorships (You know who they are) of Zionism influence but I care not of these subjects.
Well I don’t really know what I’m jabbering about but it’s depression that puts me a mood of darkness it’s the music, the air and that quite pulse of breathing. I need to work on wife part and what I will do for living, I hope you enjoyed what I wrote, I find it really hard to express myself I hope I can learn from Rebellious Arab Girl.
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March 16th, 2008 at 4:14 am
I found your blog on google and read a few of your other posts. I just added you to my Google News Reader. Keep up the good work. Look forward to reading more from you in the future.
Stacey Derbinshire
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March 16th, 2008 at 3:16 pm
Really touchy sorry about your lose, you are right about world peace - its easy but people make it hard.
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March 16th, 2008 at 11:37 pm
Stacey: cheers for adding me, means a lot - is google reader any good? i use Windows Live Mail for my feeds.
Hekem: thanks for the comment, we will never have world peace.
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March 16th, 2008 at 11:41 pm
We all have inner battles with our selves. We need to express them some how. Blogging seems to be one solution so why not use it to the fullest. Let other people realize, yes we are Arabs, but we are human beings like everyone else and we have our OWN problems.
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March 17th, 2008 at 12:26 am
Blogs seem to offer this space of personal freedom away from everyday struggles, I hear what you’re saying about us Arabs having to prove we are also humans and not blood eager terrorist, I really want to know where went wrong or maybe it’s not our fault it was pushed one us.
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March 17th, 2008 at 2:50 am
You aren’t the only one who sometimes feels that way! Don’t ever give up though. :) Patience is key.
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March 17th, 2008 at 4:04 am
“Patience is key” - funny that my name in Arabic means Patience, i have none of it.
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March 21st, 2008 at 6:59 pm
you are one paranoid person , am sorry for your lose but thats life you have to grieve and go on, life doesnt stopp for any indiviaul.
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